When the clocks knock the door at 12am, it means that I just left 21 days to study for my second monthly test. So sad. This time, I want to stop missing him and stalking him. :) I want to prove that my result will remain unchanged or even better if I have a bf. Mummy! I will show u that u are wrong. In your mind, u said that If I have a bf, I couldn't study anymore. But now, I will show u I am true with this monthly test's results. :) So my friends, help me. Teach me when I am confusing with the answer or scold me when I did the mistakes again. :) I will try to pay fully attention to the school teacher or the tutor. I won't be lazy about doing extra exercises anymore. I will have my own timetable and I won't skip tuition again. I won't hang out with friends before my monthly test. I won't be lazy to study. I swear! It's my show time. I will prove it. :)

She read me the note, he left by her side, snuck in the room right after she left, and put petals on the ground. Her head on his shoulders, they walk down the road, I'm left to wonder will I ever fall in love? Where is he now? She's with him, I'm in the backseat. Know it's not right but it's hurt when they are laughing and I never been where they are. I wanna be blown away. I wanna be swept on my feet. I wanna meet the one who makes it hard for me breath. I wanna be lost in love. I wanna be your dream come true. I wanna be scared of how strong I feel for u. On the picture, she wore hs jersey to the place. In the front screaming of his name as he turns to her and smiles. Everywhere I look people holding hands, when am I gonna get my chance in love? Cause she's with him, I am still hurting. Try to pretend but it's not working. I just wanna be where they are. My heart is waiting for your love. My hands is waiting for your touch. My lips just wanna be kiss by u. Never really have luck. Couldn't really figure out how to love. For a second u were here but now u over there?

Teddy bear, Gummy bear and Hello bear. They are nice and good I think? Maybe u are feeling curious about what is Hello bear? But, it's a secret between I with my friends. :) We heart it. :) Maybe sometimes miracle is just a lie to ourselves. But, if believe on miracle will make us feel more happy, then why don't we trust it? Tonight should be a good night for me. :) Maybe I am feeling a bit emo, but who's care. I will ask the emo feeling to get out. :D

Hello bear. :)

Gummy bear. :)

Teddy bear!!! <3 *heart it*

You’ve got that smile,
That only heaven can make.
I pray to God everyday,
That you keep that smile.
Yeah, you are my dream,
There’s not a thing I won’t do.
I’ll give my life up for you,
Cos you are my dream.
And baby, everything that I have is yours,
You will never go cold or hungry.
I’ll be there when you’re insecure,
Let you know that you’re always lovely.
Girl, cos you are the only thing that I got right now
One day when the sky is falling,
I’ll be standing right next to you,
Right next to you.
Nothing will ever come between us,
I’ll be standing right next to you,
Right next to you.
You make my life complete.
Just to have your eyes on little me,
That’d be mine forever.

Lian Chia Lynn.

Let's talk about my friend tonight. One of the pretty girl among us. Her name is Lian Chia Lynn. She always feels that she is the best on everything. :) But, she is really the best. :) My superb buddy. Love her yea. Now, she is falling in love. Unexpected but it's real. :) Have been a few month ago I think? I don't know. I want to share their pictures to u guys but u know la. I am not allowed to do that. :) So sorry. She is bahagia sangat. We are jealous-ing. We are happy because she feels so happy with him. The smiley face when we are talking about him. U can't imagine that! Never smile like that before. You've got that smile, lynn. *hee* Lian Chia Lynn, don't you feel that your life is too perfect already? :)

What happened? How come? Why? I cannot let it be. I will die if I do. I know it. Everyone know it. But I just can't stop viewing his profile. I am not falling in love la. =.= I won't let myself to do such thing also. But, in my mind, everything about him. I know that is impossible. But I just cannot control. :'(

An outing.

Haha. I am late and sorry readers. I was lazy to update me blog SERIOUSLY. *hee* 28th July is keh's birthday, but we went out for celebrating her birthday on 23rd July. I know it's too early already. Haha. Who's care. We enjoyed it. We went to redbox. Who's the we? I mean keh, khim, fun, xian and me. Lol. We sang, we jumped, we shouted, we played inside the "box". We gave keh a lovely surprise on that day. Although it's too small and normal, but we appreciate it. :) We met a lot of people on that day. Including him. Do u know who is he? Don't ask or guess. I won't tell u. :) We love each other before but now we are just best friends. :) And still got a boy. The boy makes me feel so speechless. I was just like how come? What's the feeling? Weird man. =.= Took a lot of pictures on that day. Ah! Actually not that much because most of them are just so sXXk. The photographer is not that pro. Want to see the pictures? Go to this link. [ http://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.2172864647068.2137642.1410344445 ] The day is awesome. And it makes me unforgetable. :)

Tuition again.

5.30pm to 7.30pm Mathematics's tuition. 8pm to 10.15pm Chemistry's tuition. My life is just so..RUSH! Finally, I decided go to Gurney on Saturday for Wing Keh birthday's celebration. She is so pity. Most of them are not going and I think she is kinda sad. :( Never mind. I am still the one. :) I just came back from school actually. Bathed. Online. :) Actually I have a lot of homework to do. [ ps: Homework, please wait me for half hour!! Very fast. :) ] Today, I ate my lunch. Haha. Miracle happened. :) My mum bought me Mc. Chicken Nudget and a oreo ice- cream. She knows I like it. But I din't eat it for almost half a year already. Because I am on diet laa. :'( When I was on the way home, I told my mum that I am hungry but I don't want to eat cereal, bread, oat biscuit. Have anything that is not oily, low calories but delicious? Well. She din't answer me at all. she dropped me at home and she went out again after that. Do u know where was she going? She went to the MCD and bought this meal for me. When I saw it on the kitchen table, I was like is it for me? My mum bought it? Is it? Wow. It's touched. <3 Although I am on diet, but I ate it. Do u know why? Because it's not only a normal MCD, it's full of concern. I love you mummy. :) Now, I need to go and finish up my homework already. Buh-bye!

I am totally free on today. Do u know why? Cause I din't have any tuition. Haha. I love today so much wey. If I can have this life style everyday, then don't you feel that life is 100% perfect? :D Today, I did my English oral test at school without any preparation. I know I am smart. Please don't be jealous. I no need to worry about any oral and lisan again. Because it's over laa. :) Yesterday night, I was emo and I totally cannot fall asleep. What happened? Am I still missing him? Am I still care?? Goh Peh Khim! Is your fault. If u din't asked me anything about him, then I believed that I will have a good dream. :) Haihs. But never mind, it's over. I always remind myself. Don't think about it anymore. It's useless. Well. Exam is coming soon. Exam will be starting after 1 month from now on. Wish me luck please. God, please bless me la. I beg u.

OMG!!! I love today so much. <3 Today, I totally din't have any tuition. i am free enough but I am still lazy to memorize the oral text. Sorry, Purdy. :) I did anything I want start from 2pm until now. I found the kiss kiss movie. :) Playful Kiss special Youtube edition. Damn sweet man. I also want a boyfriend with this kind of attitude and everything la. God, can u please sent me one??? Haha. After that, I went to Tesco, Tangjung Pinang with my parents. It's almost 3month ago I never go to the supermarket with my parents. U know la. The Mr.Incredible is very busy one. :( Haha. We bought a lot of things at there. Nothing much. Just lively things. :) Hm. Should I go on this coming Saturday? Should I let Chia Lynn blame on me or let Wing Keh upset? Omg. Anyone can please help me to choose?

Hahaha. Sorry readers. This few day I am freaking lazy to update my blog. :) Today, I din't go to school. I believe that u know what's the reason. :) But, I am a good student. I studied at home. Unbelievable wey! Haha. Sorry teacher. I can't give u my MC tomorrow because I am not sick. I was just lazy and I slept over. :) So do u think that the doctor will give me MC? Or my parents can give me? I hate u seriously! :p But can u please forgive me? I will slept over is because I read your lisan yesterday night until very late nee. Sunday, I went to QB to support my friends. They were participating in the YE sales. I went there for around one and a half hours with my parents. I was just like: This things are really waste money nia. It's useless laaaa. Haha. I know u guys did it hardly but I am just too honestly. :) Sorry my friends. I just came back from the temple. The daze. OMG! I really cannot open my eyes. It's full of people la. Well. Tomorrow should be the lisan day. The stupid teacher, I hate you laaa. :( Can u please go away from me? Haihs. Ah! Today is Taemin's birthday. My friends's lover. Seriously, I doesn't like him. Haha. It's late and I still need to read my lisan again. So, buhbye readers. :)

This few day I am really lazy to update my blog nee. Sorry readers. But I promise that I will update more start from tomorrow. So, tonight can u forgive me? :)

[ 愛已不能動 還有什麼值得我心痛 想你的天空 下起雨來 沒人心疼的黑夜 臉頰兩行鹹鹹的淚水 是你 哦是你 讓我望穿淚水 肝腸寸斷 你怎麼捨得讓我的淚流向海 付出的感情永遠 找不回來 你怎麼捨得讓我的愛流向海 傷心的往事一幕幕就像潮水 將我淹埋 閉上了雙眼 還看見和你的纏綿 眼角的淚水 洗不去心中 一遍一遍的誓言 ]

I found this in Youtube. It's the lyrics of a song. It's meaningful. :)

Awesome night!

Yesterday, I had my dinner with my big big family at Tian Yi Restaurant. My relative came back from Papua New Guinea with a summer holiday. :) I think so if i doesn't get wrong. :) After that, we went to Straits Quay, Berlin's Bier Houz. There was full of people. But, luckily we got our chair. :) All of us were drinking around 13 litres of German beer there. Including adults and the teenagers and the KIDS!!! I took a lot of picture but I am lazy to upload now. >o< The gathering ended up at around 1am something and after that I went to my brother's friend house. Drinking over there again. But not me la. I never drink at my friend's home. We reached home at around 2.30am and it was freaking tired. I went to bed at 3.30am and I woke up at 1am today. Wow! My life. Enjoyable! not lifeless anymore! But, that's just only for yesterday night. Start from tomorrow, everything should as usual again. :( Well. I must always remember that I am still a student. I must work harder. So now, I must go and finish up my homework already. Buh-bye! :)

As a student, the most elated moment is when the school authorities are announcing that there are a school holiday on when when when. Haha. No offence. Its should be true. :) Today, it's a public holiday even though I don't know what's the reason. Everyone are going out and why I can just sit on the chair at home and face to the computer? What happened to me? That's not me man. I am not that kind of good girl. i am sick. That's the reason. My parents are out to Kedah to visit my ahma and my brother is out to somewhere out there. No one wants to bring me out leh. My friends. Don't say already. Most of them also doesn't like to hang out one. Don't talks about it anymore. It's sad. Haha. I watched Transformer yesterday night with my parents. Its AWESOME!!! The technique is so mature and fantastic. Wow! The optimus prime. Oh my love. I love it. Bubble bee also. For those who haven't watch yet, faster go and buy a ticket and watch it. Well. I have to do my homework already. Buh-bye! :)

Friendship almost gone. :'(

Kinda emo today~

When I know u guys love each other.

Given up, given up, no choice but to given up.

I still remember when we will once each other's only one.

You are the one who accepted our relationship.

It hasn't end, given up, can't pull away, evade.

Experienced it, countless complexities love.

Some night, at the streetlight, the next opportunity.

I say hello, you respond.

I discover you are no longer single.

When I know u guys love each other,

there was a beginning and there was a future.

In my heart, I can't let go and forget.

Manage it well and bury it.

When I know u guys love each other,

the bottom of my heart floats helplessly.

At this time, I should have a purpose to be happy.

I can keep on waiting, waiting for the future.

In the suitcase under the bed, there's layers and layers of memories.

After releasing this thoughts, it's forgotten.

I discover I no longer miss u.

I am lying on the sofa, looking at our pictures, one after another.

I don't know since when that feeling was different.

Right now, your face is already embedded in my heart.

Every minute, every second, every corner.

I can keep on probing.

Searching for the perfect love song.

Move on, move on, move on.

Its raining. :( I hate raining actually. I scared the stupid lightning and thunder. Who can save? Where is my angel? :( My dad is sick. He got a high fever and serious sore throat. Omg. Take care, dad. I know u will come and view my blog eh. <3 Don't be too tired anymore. U are old d. Must be more caring to your health d. :) Haihs. I went to school in this morning for the stupid "1 Sukan 1 Malaysia" program. It was sweat btw. =.= I was tired enough and my leg is almost patah d. :( Haihs. A very freely and bored Saturday. I like it btw. Its giving me more time to gather with my family. :) I am kinda lazy now. Sorry readers. Buh-bye. :)