Just came back from my ahma's house. Very tired about it. My ahma looked so old this time. :) *teehee* Today, I cannot go gurney with my friends la!!!! Hate it! :( But, never mind, I think they will have a good day at there. :( Another meeting tomorrow, tired but I am looking forward to. With the arrival of the camp, all our feelings have become better. I really want to remain so. Do not change. I was with them, we do very well, and I am happy, the embarrassment had gone, has become more to talk to. :) 28 November night, the great day I haven't had before. :) I will remember it. :)

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Makeup!

Today, as usual, have the meeting. We just do not seem unusual today more seriously, perhaps because of the selection day Come on now! On Monday! That tomorrow is our last day of practice. Was really NERVOUS! Please wish us luck! In addition to other hard dance practice today, we have discussed how the makeup should be drawn on that day. Finally, let's discuss a result out, but uncertainty cannot be successful, so we did an experiment. :) Pei Er began to move out of her cosmetics, after Kevin was brought as a white mouse. :) After some effort, we realized that he became quite good looking.

Quite good looking right? :) Haha! When we finished makeup for him, he looked surprised too! GOD, please bless us so that we can dance it while campfire night. :)

Just returned back from the hospital, and it should be regarded as good news or bad news? In the hospital, I heard a doctor and a girl of dialogue, the girl came for inspection to her body.

The following is their conversation:

The girl : Why is my spine back in pain recently?

Doctor : You recently did not do the movement a little drama? Or a day without a break, continued to exercise?

The girl : Hm~ Yeah! I have dance practice all afternoon, the night I will go to the gym.

Doctor : Have I tell you before? If you continue to exercise, it is very likely to be hurt again, your spine.

The girl : *Just keep quite*

Doctor : If you can, do not make any movement until the report came out. If u do not listen, next time will definitely hurt even more than this time.

The girl : Okay. Thanks doctor.

I heard this while i was walking out from the doctor's room. A bit scared. But I cant do anything. :( What should i do? *tears drop*

How to do? I wait for the next will see a doctor. I am very nervous! Please! Do not let the doctor and call me do not do strenuous exercise in the next week from now. :( Last time he already told me like this. I felt so regret why am I dint hear that. :'( My backbone, u must be more better before my selection day please! GOD, bless me!

I've never been sure I was not still like you. All you have done for me, again and again so I'm disheartened. Might say that I really love and hate it for you. . . Ignored again and again, and made my life for you and turn faster. Why? Why do you is the ability to make me become like this? But you always ignored again and again later, let me get back the original feeling. This is love? Honestly, I really do not know. You make it hard to smile and you make it hard to breathe. Why do you do this to me? I've cried for you. :'( These day aren't easy anymore. All the words we never say come out, and now we are all ashamed. I lose my sense of wrong and right and i cry. I just wanna crawl into my bed and throw away the life i led but i wont let it die. Please stay close to me and please don't go away.

Today we were meeting at Pei Er's home. However, because the going KAMDAR to buy cloth and YOUNGONE to buy pen, so I went with Sabrina rather late. But there are pieces of a very funny thing happened. We met NELSON over there. We deliberately naughty hit him, but he did not respond, but also very natural walking next to us is really laughable! Haha! Then we walked intentionally in front of him and greeted him, the following is our conversation:

Sabrina and I : HELLO!

Nelson : Eeyh~ HI!

Sabrina and I : Eh! Why do you come here?

Nelson : Orh! I work, I just come here to buy something.

Sabrina and I : Orh. I see.

[His money out of the ground]

Nelson ：I'm going, bye!

[ Sabrina and I feel a little nonsense. :) ]

After that, we strolled to continue to go. She has been busy buying things, and me? It is not something boring to do, so pick up the phone, open the phone's camera and began to engage narcissism. Hahahahahahaha!!! There were many things, but as long as the mirror, I can take pictures. Ha ha! The following are my results after narcissistic：










After a sudden, her mother drove us to Pei Er's home. When we reached her home, really was a bit embarrassed, after all, very late. Ha ha! Sorry strategy! Then we started to dance practice! After the hungry. Called PIZZAHUT. Should thanks to ANN YONG! Because this is her idea. :) After eating, we continued our dance practiced. But today we encountered a problem that we do not have a tacit understanding. No understanding of the dance is not nice. We try to develop our chemistry, but the relationship may be the time, so little difficult. And then, most recently at the beginning of my spine and pain, and do not know why, maybe excessive movement of the bar. Because this few week I recently have been practice dance from the morning to the afternoon, and then go to the gym at night. Should not go to the meeting tomorrow, and I am now a rest home. Hope this pain will not affect my dance performance. Even if it hurt, I will insist to dance through. Will not let myself go to drag the whole team. GOD, U MUST BLESS ME!

Sorry that I loved you.

For all of the times that I tried for your smile
For making you think that I was worth the while
So your love love love love love would be mine

For sending you flowers and holding your hand
That no one was there to take a stand
But then love love love made us blind

And I`m so sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry I was fallin in love with you
Im sorry that it came true but sorry doesn`t turn back time
For all that I have done to you
I wish that I could make it right
So sorry that I loved you
Sorry that I needed you
Sorry that I held you tight

And Im so sorry for...
Making you love me and saying goodbye
For being the one that taught you how to cry
It was love love love and it passed us by

For giving you every thing that you dreamed
For taking it back when I fled the scene
Sorry love， for wasting your time

An apology now after all of this time
Won`t make any difference tonight
But im hopin "im sorry" will open your mind
To love love love love in your life

Today's meeting took place at Prangin Mall and Pei Er's house. LOL. We went to Prangin Mall for buying our guides dance, scouts dance and combined dance's clothes. Everyone get their nice clothes at different stores. However, there are some funny things you want to share with you. Today, actually we should meet at Pei Er's house fist before we went to Prangin Mall. But when we arrived at his house, looking in, only to find nobody inside. How to do? Of course, quickly pick up the phone, then dial a phone call in the past. Ha ha! Know where! They are already in Prangin Mall. Then I with Sabrina saw each other a moment and we also say a word, that is, XXXX. :) It does not matter! Our peculiar journey had begun. We walked up the bus stop opposite the school bus, walk over there, it was already sweating out. Later, managed to wait until a bus, on the bus, a lot of funny and embarrassing things happen, but i am not going to share it out. SORRY! :) After a while, we found that we were wrong bus, do not know where it was. Under the bus after we had been walking away, and finally let us see that a high-ranking KOMTAR! Suddenly we feel like that savior. Ha ha! Go, the first thing is not to find them first, but find a place to sit down and then a glass of water to thirst. This really is a rare experience. After that we went to the Prangin Mall. We have not met them first, our first walk around and see what clothes are appropriate for the dance wear also. Walked, suddenly the phone rang, they finally called. After all, time to go look for them up really is not much. Then went home after purchase. We continue to practice our dance, and finally had finished all of it! Sign Congratulations to us! Dance this year, must be our champion! Ha ha! Suddenly, it began to rain heavily. And we have stopped far and wide. Started after the talk, chat, play. I also found one thing, the closer the date of the camp, our feelings to get better. Is a good thing! We also hope that today will not change, the future we will, as today. Please!

Now is already 1am d. But i am still "piaing" the banner. :) I am sure that it will be a nice banner tomorrow at 10am. Wish me luck can please help me to stop the time. Not going to sleep tonight until my banner is finish. Hahaah! Will share the photo with u guys when i finish the banner. :) And the other thing is my dear came back already. woohoo!!! We will meet tomorrow. Cant wait for it. :)

Thank you my friend! They will always send a paper towel for me when i burst into tears. :) After crying, now I feel more comfortable. Thank you, they listen to me complain, give me proper support and comfort. I will get better. Will not shed tears anymore. :)

SORRY!

I hope that I can help one, so tomorrow I just can not let go. I continue to help, has been done, until all things are done so far. If there is anything you feel uncomfortable to my place, very sorry. However, I have try to help, so it please you a lot of tolerance.

Today, a little unhappy. After chatting with them, feel a little unpleasant so the tears can not help but to fall down. It should say a little aggrieved. But the only point. I admit that I did not finish within the time limit is really my fault, so they tell me I do not blame them. But within a week to finish all of my points really hard. I have to buy cloth, and then sewn up with my own hands, really hard. Very big piece of cloth. And I am a girl that don't know how to sew a thing, so for me that really need a lot of time. Maybe because I learn so how stupid are not. Also because of this, my hands were a lot of holes bird acupuncture, and some bleeding. But I did not want to say up, because that is I am willing to. I do not want to because I am so let the whole team to lose. I have also to draw into my best, and I'm sorry I'm late. But I promise you, even if I did not sleep tonight, I at least finish the drawing all, and then on to the color of at least half of it to you. As for the dance, I will do my best, will not drag you. I'm sorry to Pei Er because of the dance. And sorry for the whole team because of the banner. :( Today I feel tired, feet really have blinded. Today I feel tired, feet really get blinded. Why do I have from the Batu Lancang and walked back to my house? How far is that? Now just i know. :(

miss and missed.

You know that love is not strong, but inside I was desperately jump. You know that longer follow may be the imprisoned, but I still believe is suffering. Friends tried to persuade me not to do, do not take a joke well-being of their own. But true love does not give, this just is truly ridiculous. True love is too easy for too sacrifice their own, too easy to let yourself sink, too easy to disregard all full of scars. I'm too dumb to know clearly who you are wrong, knows this is not fate, but I also rushed. This may be considered stupid in love. May never be the so-called eternal. But I do not want to give up maybe prefer a little bit stupid but just not want to regret, because I believe somewhat likely.

To: Unit 2

I hope that in November 29, all of you are access to the Internet. There are some things to get you to see, though not expensive, not very valuable, but I believe it is very rare, and is of great significance. Please!

wth. :(

What this world, is there a drink that that will make people become not shy? :) Who can help me? I was shy. Have been best to release some, but still. Why? :( Today went to the meeting, in the meeting we have to practice dancing. I'm always a little bit afraid and shy in front of others when i need to let go of the dance. I hope that when i am dancing, I can change the people around become recessive. Only ten days left, I really do not want to incriminate them. God, can i make w wish to you again? Please let the shyness always far away from me. :"(

Muax!

And just went out with friends ( Fanny Pah, Peh Khim, Wing Keh, Chia Lynn, Pey Shan, Pricillia Kuay, Kevin Lee, Yun Ting, Eunice Kuay, Wei Sheen, Chea Chien, Jo Win and Kelvin). Quite cool. The four men met to eat lunch together. Who would have thought? The world really do not have money to eat lunch! Thank you to Wei Sheen, Chea Chien, Jo Win and the other guy( I do not know who he is ）. :) Btw, thanks a lot yea. Tomorrow another meeting at Aaron's house. Have to start busy. From our date of camp until now still left around two or three weeks aneh. Tired die me! I missed my gym today. XXXX! Nevermind. Will be going on tomorrow night. :) No photo for this outing. Sorry. :)

Big bang - make love lyrics

I never knew Id find a love so true
This one right here, is just for you

Remember that One day
I held your hands then I kissed your lips then I told you
Our love was meant to be and always will forever
Give me that happiness I get from you just being there

I always see you when I close my eyes, youre on my mind
So cant you see, I need you right here wit me, close by my side
This time for sure, Gonna let you know, My love is straight from the heart

Forever youre my girl Forever be my world You are the only one
The only one Ill ever need, my life is you and me
Forever youre my girl Forever be my world
You are the only one
Ill never break your heart no, so baby dont let go

Even through the hard times We made it through just fine
When it hurt we put in the work
To show that Im yours
And that your mine
Thats how we got this far
Lets never be apart
Girl, youre my queen
Im here for you
Cuz youre my everything

You always make me feel like everyhings gonna be alright
With the things you do, because its you the real true love of my life
This time fo sho, Gonna let you know, My love is straight from the heart

Forever you my girl Forever be my world
You are the only one
The only one Ill ever need, my life is you & me Forever you my girl Forever be my world
You are the only one

Ill never break your heart no, so baby dont let go

uh baby!
you know Id walk them miles
climb mountains with up styles
all I wanna do, is be with you
aint no matter what, where and how
(right here and now) we can both get down (straight work it out) yeah
like that sound bump n grindin perfect timin
lets dine and both be proud
yeah yeah yeah
gonna take you on a joyride today
me and you stay true never hesitate
to make love — sho nuff
youre the only one Im ever thinkin of

just to hold you baby I can hardly wait
as we go through the motions damn its great
to make love — sho nuff were gonna take it to the end and thats whats up

You are the only one I want to spend my whole life with I know
Anywhere you are, thats where I will call home

So just take my hand and say that you will never let it go
Two hearts always beating as one forever more

Forever you my girl Forever be my world
You are the only one
The only one Ill ever need, my life is you & me Forever you my girl Forever be my world
You are the only one

Im nothing without you Im nothing without you girl

Just chatted with friends, he told me a lot about his relationship problems. I know that to find a people who love each other really harder. Little thoughts and feelings. Today, many people have emotional problems, really annoyed. But never mind, I am happy to help others. :) Also, in the facebook, a personal question [ who on earth thinks i'm a playa? -.- ] Don't be too serious for my answer. I just want to play. Not play. Is make a fun. Sorry yea. :)

a good mood today. :)

Come congratulate me! Today, I get along with them very happy. With them is really very different, there will always be laughter in the air. We get better. Thank you, God bless. I wish to always be like this! Of course not only with them, I hope I and others can forever be so good. A good mood today. And i would like to sent the good news for my dear, Sabrina Chee Ke Yin. [ To HER, I've said, do not worry after u go travel i will get along with them harder. Now proved, i can get along with them better by myself. I can right? :) But you do not have to worry about, as I still need you. Hahahahahahha!!! Next meeting will be a lot, if I can I will go. So you need not worry. I miss u like hell. <3 ] Go out with friends tomorrow, I hope tomorrow will be a very happy day. God, I have to make a wish to you. Remember to bless me tomorrow, okay? God, bless me!!! :)

sorry！

Finished! So late I can not find in me to go. Already 9.40am. Forget it! Might go a bit later! Sorry!

:) = :(

I am going meeting tomorrow. Seriously, a little bit of nervous. I don't know why also. Maybe is because i must go myself without my dear eh accompany gua.:) But i believe that tomorrow will be better. I will get along with them as well as i can. God, u must bless me!!!

I still miss！

Today, all the form3 students in the last day of class, should be happy or sad? Sad because of not willing, happy because we have had in a long holiday? Today I did not go to school, so sorry to my friends. Yesterday i cannot go Pei Er's house to celebrate Wei Wei's birthday with them, it make me so regret. How I feel every day I regret doing things that will make their own ah? I cannot go to the camp's meeting this few day, to be honest was a bit worried for fear of alienating their more. I hope not! Hope God bless me! In fact, not seen them for so long, really miss them a bit. Do not know why.
Maybe used everyday to get along with them, so suddenly a person is really let me felt a bit uncomfortable. Banana2, Pear, Banana, Annoying orange, Pumpkin, Lady pasta, Lemon, the special person with the special name which i miss all the day. :)

A very Happy Birthday to my friend, WEI WEI! Hahahahaha!Today should be the happiest day for her. :) However, very unhappy, I can not celebrate with her. I have to stay at home. I'm going out it! :( But no matter, I believe they will very happy to celebrate. More photos will be updated tonight. Where the first give you a beautiful cake here.

TO：Sabrina Chee

Here, I would like to wish you enjoy your pleasant trip. Do not worry, I will miss you. Haha!!! I know you will miss me too. Haha. * Cheeky *! We will all be waiting for you back!

closer and closer!!!

Today's meeting is very happy, although I'm beginning a bit awkward, but then I gradually discovered that the feeling of embarrassment was gone, a good thing, right? Thank you, God bless! Let us really close to each other a lot. Today we went for each other strange names, all of the ideas that they came to Nicholas Yeap. At today's meeting, there is a word often heard in the house has been filled, it is Whatzupppppp!!!!! Hahahahah!!! Perhaps some people do not understand why is this word, but it does not matter, like our own understanding. Really hope that future meetings can be so, but we are getting closer and away from camp, and things just started to do it, to be honest really worried. Tomorrow I'll start painting it! Or else would want me die!

If still in love with a person, but for various reasons can not be together, share of mind absolutely cannot bring ourselves down to completely rigid and the other contact, the same will be more concerned because of this and the other, like: the same friends after breaking up . Few people can do it, and always will miss after breaking up has become more, to one another, but the couple have broken up completely make, unless love has turned into hate, or really hard. But if a lack of trust between each other, the feelings still there meaning? A relationship is mutual suspicion the most taboo, because it is often hurt themselves hurt each other's causes. Two people together, rely on the heart to maintain feelings of suspicion, the most pure sense still there?

GYM GYM GYM!!!

Just to complete the gym. Slightly tired! Just because my body type better. Ha ha! SABRINA CHEE, PROVE IT?? Lols. Another thing is that the meeting tomorrow, do not know why I am super nervous. Maybe too long without meeting with them, so I really, really nervous. Tomorrow will be better? Really it? I do not want anything happens, I hope God bless tomorrow we all get along very well and maybe even better than before. God bless me please! Do not make me embarrassed, and do not let them embarrassed too. Please, GOD!

try harder to make us become closer.

In fact, I think they can not seem to fully accept me, but it does not matter, I will continue to work until they fully accept me. Even a little unhappy and wronged, I will continue to work hard. Because there is a picture so I continue to not give up the power, ha ha! Remember? We first went to their school, we shot on the playground.

the first moment when we became closer. It taste good. :)

Go to school today, only one sentence to describe my feelings, it is boring to me half dead. Ha ha! Today at school we talked a lot of things, only to find the feeling of embarrassment in fact, have slowly disappeared. Is a good thing to come! Quite happy. However，because of sick yesterday, so my mother not allowed me to meetings. I made no go. I'm sorry! Was not any meeting tomorrow, but I should be starting our banner tomorrow. Ha ha! There is one thing makes me feel a lot easier that I have not the US again le, and will make our Pei Er do. Is a good thing to come! Also, in the facebook i found a picture, by our beloved Nelson. I'll share with you. Really cute!!! Each bear represent a members of our unit. The feeling let me felt that have a friends like that is good. :) The picture show at below:

my morning sincere smile.

I went to school this morning and i saw them before i step into the school. Honestly, quick embarrassing. I do not know why? But I'm pretty sure I will give my most sincere smile when i saw them. At school, my heart felt more comfortable. Perhaps things really should start with a sincere smile. After school, tell you a thing that is I saw them. They passed from my school gate. In fact, I am a bit scared and do not know how to do. But I'm pretty sure that if we just see each other then, I will definitely go over and talk to them to give with a smile. I hope I can do better. I also believe that not only embarrassed me, so I hope we can do better. Even if we become so familiar with the first day of meeting. :)

thank you!

Thank you forgive me. =) Last night when i saw the blog's post, seriously my tears drop. but luckily the end u guys also forgive me. I hope that we will get our friendship be better and the memory will be more cherish. =) I also wish to apologize for everyone for what i have done. Maybe those things was already give u guys a lot of trouble. :( I really really very sorry about that. Perhaps my stubbornness let u guys think i am a girl that very high-handed, but i promise that i will change it. Sorry and I hope that u guys do not care about that. Since i do not be emo in the next meeting d. I will try to be better and i will learn to accept other people suggestions and won't always in my own way to settle problems. But my friends, please do not meeting at too early ahbo later u guys ot enough sleep or else. We stll have a lot of things to do together. :) And remember next time if i am wrong again, u guys can just tell me or scold me also never mind d. I will accept it as i can. Maybe not that fast but i will flash it before i say anything. =) nights.

I hope I am a cheerful girl... I hope I can bring laughter to others is not the sorrow... I am the girl you like？？I wish I were. No longer in silence，I want to be that the most chaotic... Please do not call me when you want to quietly... I hope I can show you that i was the girl who is very easy. =) Please remember this picture, my face was always kind

my meeting..

Everytime when i am trying, i felt that u all are always stay far apart from me. =( Why?? I was laughing when i am trying to mixed with u guys, but sometimes it let me felt like better i don't do it. lols. Maybe i am a stupid or idiot, i don't think that u guys will know i am tying harder. Sometimes i will try to show u guys a pair of friendly eyes, maybe sometimes it was too obvious and unnatural, but i just want to show that i am not that kind of girl that are difficult to get along. My laughter is hiding a bit of sadness and uncomfortable, but please give me sometimes. I need to change it be a peace smile. =) I am not deliberately because i really not that kind of girl. Please accept my girl is such. I was not staring you but i was just looking at what u do. I am quiet because i know that i can't be too over because i know sometimes u can't accept with what i said. I just don't want to make anyone become sad so i don't like and scared for talking too much. I like to have a friends or even buddies like u guys and i promised that i won't be emo when i was sick all better. I am sure that i am not a sad girl, perhaps i cannot afford to make me feel sick. I do not want to say something，i just want to be frank only.

my meeting..

Everytime when i am trying, i felt that u all are always stay far apart from me. =( Why?? I was laughing when i am trying to mixed with u guys, but sometimes it let me felt like better i don't do it. lols. Maybe i am a stupid or idiot, i don't think that u guys will know i am tying harder. Sometimes i will try to show u guys a pair of friendly eyes, maybe sometimes it was too obvious and unnatural, but i just want to show that i am not that kind of girl that are difficult to get along. My laughter is hiding a bit of sadness and uncomfortable, but please give me sometimes. I need to change it be a peace smile. =) I am not deliberately because i really not that kind of girl. Please accept my girl is such. I was not staring you but i was just looking at what u do. I am quiet because i know that i can't be too over because i know sometimes u can't accept with what i said. I just don't want to make anyone become sad so i don't like and scared for talking too much. I like to have a friends or even buddies like u guys and i promised that i won't be emo when i was sick all better. I am sure that i am not a sad girl, perhaps i cannot afford to make me feel sick. I do not want to say something，i just want to be frank only.

suddenly...

hahaha~~~~~ i look back to the "i need a girl" video. Suddenly i cant imagine that what will be the image when all of us dance a perfect combined dance.. hahaha!!!

today.

Had a meeting at Sabrina's house today. lols. Laugh die me. Had a great and funny day with them today. But who are them??? Want know??? I tell u....me, Sabrina, Wei Wei. Pei Er, Kah Heng, Kevin, Nelson and Nicholas. =))) They let me know that i am going to have a memorable camp in this year. =) We always played together and all the scouts were always bully our guides. =))) *just kidding* Bully is our communicate ways. =) Look so different right??? Good la. We practised our guides dance, scouts dance and of course combined dance today. Laugh die me again. =D We have four pair in this combined dance and we are dancing the song which is our lovely idol's song name as "i need a girl". Go watch the movie if u are free please. Every dance steps is close to each other. Everyone felt so shy from the start and luckily we felt more comfortable and starting to play and dance with each other. =)) haha. The four pairs which is Kah Heng vs Sabrina, Kevin vs Pei Er, Wei Wei vs Nicholas and Me vs Nelson. lols. The Nelson dont know want how punya. When we were dancing, he keep on laughing. I want to take a thing and stuck on his mouth. It make me laugh non stop when i look he laugh. lols. If u is me, I believe u will have the same expression with me too. haha!!! lols. Having a meeting on tomorrow at Sabrina's house again. =))) I am waiting for great day and we will start our banner tomorrow. =))) Btw, i want to complain a thing which is why the meeting time so long one??? From 10.30am until 7pm. =((( I am a sicker u know. Haha. Nvm. I am going gym after meeting also. Who want to floow me??? =)))

3 November

Totally forget to update my blog yesterday. =))) because really too tired d. sorry. =/ Yesterday had a meeting near kevin and pei er's house there. lols. Actually both of them live damm close d. Then after my school, I, Sabrina and Nicholas went to Kamdar and Young One to buy the banner's cloth and pelaka by bus. lols. Actually our beloved Ul should be following one, but maybe was let me kek tiok then he go back before the bus come. haha. sorry and please forget about it , UL. On the way back to the meeting's place, let the "siao ta po" chased me and Sabrina. Scared die me man. A lot of photo was taking during we were waiting the bus at the Prangin Bus Station. =))) It was raining yesterday. i thought that i will be nothing after get rain but mana tau, fever in the morning. My mum dint even scold me also. But my friend was scolding me. lalalala~~~ nhahah. They look like my mum and i am a baby. =))))))))) waiting for tomorrow meeting d. should be more fun . =0)

gossip!!!

wow!!! today i went for meeting and had nothing to do there. just wait for our beloved UL there until everyone want siao d. then slowly we started gossip about the Kah Heng which is our beloved UL. hahahaa. He must let us gossip a while because this is his hukuman. haha. sorry yea. our beloved UL. =)))