my meeting..

Everytime when i am trying, i felt that u all are always stay far apart from me. =( Why?? I was laughing when i am trying to mixed with u guys, but sometimes it let me felt like better i don't do it. lols. Maybe i am a stupid or idiot, i don't think that u guys will know i am tying harder. Sometimes i will try to show u guys a pair of friendly eyes, maybe sometimes it was too obvious and unnatural, but i just want to show that i am not that kind of girl that are difficult to get along. My laughter is hiding a bit of sadness and uncomfortable, but please give me sometimes. I need to change it be a peace smile. =) I am not deliberately because i really not that kind of girl. Please accept my girl is such. I was not staring you but i was just looking at what u do. I am quiet because i know that i can't be too over because i know sometimes u can't accept with what i said. I just don't want to make anyone become sad so i don't like and scared for talking too much. I like to have a friends or even buddies like u guys and i promised that i won't be emo when i was sick all better. I am sure that i am not a sad girl, perhaps i cannot afford to make me feel sick. I do not want to say something，i just want to be frank only.