what can i say today???

i am sorry everything is over..
but i guess this is really over now...
there is something i gotta say before i let u go...
listen...i would argue...
then i would cry...
as u sre struggling...i would only get a stronger...
my heartaches behind this shadows...
my face brightens up when i saw u smile on me again...
i worry that u might notice my feelings...
and i get scared that the gap between us would widen...
i hold my breath then i bite my lips...
then i pray that u wont leave me again...
baby..can u love me again???
i've be waiting u for so long...
i duwan to be alone...
please look at me now...
once the musics end..i want us together forever...
i prayed and prayed this day would come to me...
you never understood what my feelings...
i despited on u so much...
to the point i sometimes would miss a misfortune upon u...
but now, my eyes are dry...
now i am talking to myself..it must be an old habbit...
please forget how misereble i looked...
its going to be so unbearably hard for me...for a long while u come...
for such a long time...
i lived in an illusion like a fool...