i miss you.

if you ask me how many times you ran through my mind i will only say once because you will never even left. it is funny how someone can break your heart and you can still love them with all the little pieces. should i smile cause you are my friend or cry cause that all we will never be. it is hard to wait around to something that you know it will never happen. but it is hard to stp when you know it is always what u wanted. never make someone you are everything, because when they are gone, you are left with nothing. sometimes it feel like thing that will never gonna change but then you look back and realize they will never be the same.

sab, this is for you.

We make our paths ,
We're independent .
We dump our boyfriends.
And we do our hair anyway we would like .
We figure out , that we are attractive .
And we look around ,
And now we loved to live the single life .
And then we tell ourselves well never fall in love again .
But then he comes around and suddenly we understand ,
That we have never really been in love before
And suddenly I know what all the love songs that they write are all about ,
And suddenly I dont care if its right or wrong as long as hes around ,
And suddenly the things that used to sound clishe are perfectly right in your eyes .
Perfectly right with this guy .
I know its wierd ,
But we are connected .
And in some strange and crazy way I think ,
That we have always been .
And now he's here ,
And he says he loves me .
And it feels so right ,
And In fact it feels so good that I can't sleep at night .
But I just told myself I will not fall in love again .
But he just came around and then he made me understand ,
That I have never really been in love before.
And yes ,
I know you might get impatient .
But look around ,
He might be walking right in front of you .
And if he touches you and you feel your skin is burning .
Kisses you and you feel your stomach turning ,
Hes the one ,
He is the one .

sorry, babe.

Lately I've been thinking 'bout wat i can do
I've been stressing to fall back in love with you
I'm so sorry that I couldn't follow through
But I can't go on this way
I've got to stop it babe
You've been wonderful in all that you can be
But it hurts when i realise that i am not enough wonderful.
So believe me I, I am sorry I.. I am sorry
I'm done I just can't do this anymore
So let's stop pretending now
And I think we should head for the finish line
i am so sorry babe.

i wanted you.

i wanted you to be there when i fall.
i wanted you to see me through it all.
i wanted you to be the one i loved.
i wanted you to hold me in my sleep.
i wanted you to show me what i need.
i wanted you to know just how down deep.
i wanted you to hug me when i sad.
i wanted you to kiss on my cheek when i down.
i wanted you to know i love the way you laugh.
i wanted you to fight for me.
i wanted you to feel the same with me.
i wanted you to see what real courage is.
i wanted you to write a song for me.
i wanted you to do something for me.
i wanted you to smile because of me.
i wanted you to be everything that's you.
i wanted you to look at me.
i wanted you to connect with me.
i wanted you to believe what am i believe.
i wanted you to know what we know that.

half of a love song

Flower accepts withering
Wind accepts searching
There are still some alright injuries in the heart
I accept your decision
Who will hold you tight
What song will you sing to make her happy
I wonder when the sky will turn sunny
Earth never stops for anyone
How happy your are tomorrow has nothing to do with me
Our love is a song half sung
Time changes the habit
Heals the wound
And cancels my qualification to think of you
Your blessing is half sweet, half bitter
Like the cold cocoa in my hand
The most, most regretful is always the unfinished
The song I could only sing half
Whether I'm happy tomorrow only concerns me
Our love is a song half sung
Time changes the habit
Heals the wound
And cancels my qualification to think of you
Your blessing is half sweet, half bitter
Like the cold cocoa in my hand
The most, most regretful is always the unfinished
Other half of the song

bbq!!

just came back from sab's housse barbeque. damm hot there but so syok. all friends were there and everyone were so siao that time. haha. tomorow stil need going for pei er house barbeque. lols. so hopeful. sure very syok also d. haha. but another way, the school holiday is coming soon. lols. sienz la. exam is coming soon also. geram. haihs. chap siao it already. after my chinese new year holiday just discuss it again la. haha.

valentine day...

tomorrow is valentine day already.
a very special valentine day.
who's present that u hope will take it on tomorrow?
this question sab ask me yst.
when i am thinking.
she tell me..
sure is him la..
yea. that is true. but i dint tel her. i just say who's want i also duwan.
lol.

...

that day...when i passed your house. i think back everything of us. the first image. the first talking sentences. the first clothing that u wear when i saw u. the first thing that u let me smile and the first action that u do for me... so many first time until now i still remember. but maybe that just will become a memories.. what i needed? u always want me think what i needed. i admit i am not the perfect want. please stay here for me. i need u stay here and stay here in my heart. love still stay in my heart. memories still so fresh. suddenly felt that u just like beside me now. boy, do you know? you are changing my life.

moodless

today we were dicussing about the changing place d thing again ler...the problem keep kacau me...i felt like she got a bit beh syok me already. haihs. izit for our friendship? or just for herself.. who know. we not her. just that was so tired. n place to let her sit. but she keep saying she want sit here. ask her sit where? floor? table? or where? keep saying abiut the place problem to us. why she need so care? izit it will be better if she stop talking that? i think that is. we dint say will just leave her alone also.. but got sometimes. her kuan a. her face a. will let people pek chek. really. but what can we do.. just keep quite and let her sat until some day she felt so tired for talking about this? yea. we will do it. if you me? what will u do to her?

friendship

yor..why everything will become like that want???just because changing place at class then everything change already...got a friend keep saying we just leave her alone at behind...we not duwan let her come sit with us a...just she keep choosing place...how come??? then we give her a place to sit with us...then she say she duwan laa... cause too in front laa... or what what what... then she said she sit behind better than sit in front... then is she duwan sit there what... not we duwan let her sit what... then after that she said untill like we wrong cause we dint let her sit with us... and the important is teacher said last roll student move to there only what... then she not at last roll how she move to there.. grr.. if she continue like that... i belive that our friendship really will become more weird...

blue tomorrow

到了明天 说好不再见面
坐在街尾的店 我一个人 点了一杯想念
到了明天 只能让爱擦肩
两个人的笑脸 天亮前 变成泛黄的照片
身边 ([东海] 寂寞在蔓延)
视线 ([东海] 被泪水模糊焦点)
把 我爱你
留在了心底 放在了唇边
到了明天 你就离开我身边
到了明天 独自向流星许愿像一场电影的完结篇
我们的结局 应验泪水的预言
碎了一地的诺言
拼凑不回的昨天
可我仍期待奇迹会出现
而你身影 越来越远
爱 还留在我房间
回忆还很新鲜
一瞬间 感觉你就在眼前
身边 (寂寞在蔓这线 )
(被泪水模糊焦点)
一句 我爱你
深深留在了心底 放在了唇边
到了明天 你就离开我身边
到了明天 独自向流星许愿
像一场电影的完结我们的结局 应验泪水的预言
碎了一地的诺言
拼凑不回的昨天
可我一直期待奇迹会出现 oh no~
而你离去身影 却越来越远
没有你 爱开始冬眠
孤单会占据每一天
我站在路灯下面
冷清的街边那个曾相拥的地点
是我们一起躲过雨的屋檐 oh~
到了明天 你就离开我身边
到了明天 独自向流星许愿
像一场电影的完结篇
我们的结局 应验泪水的预言
碎了一地的诺言
拼凑不回的昨天
可我仍期待 奇迹会再出现 oh no~
我依然还 怀念相爱的从前
我依然还 等你回到我身边
你留在我冰冷的枕边
按下暂停的时间
直到你再次出现无法承受没有你的每一天
我爱你不会改变
我爱着你 到永远

my new year clothes!!!

i not yet buy my new year clothes...
grr...
the chinese is coming soon already...
my chinese new year clothes...
gurney...u wait me...
i will go shop until i syok on tuesday night...
i want go buy whatever i want expecially my clothes, high heels, and my new bags...
haha...
everyone bought finished their clothes already...
just left me not yet buy anything...
wtf..
i want my new clothes!!!

an anonymous friend..

lonelinees sent a dark wind that doens't leave...remembering the excitement of love...the sky is red...the warmth is strong...an image of you appears in my heart...we live together in the city's maze...mentioning your name, my heart still jumps...and yet we dont meet again...there only remain the touch...and yet we no dare to touch emotionaly...maybe we really was too young...for our cluelessness, we wander in our separate skies...we let each other choose what to say...but this longing still turns...a hand that i cant hold...from now on, an anonymous friend...but my attachment is still persistent...but you have nothing to do with the tears that i swallow...a hand that i cant hold, but is more closer than family...there should be every "what if"...but there are no 'what if'...only the warmth that was lost...the dear affection...

a new promised was born at this minutes...

today...at school keep thinking of you again...
i think i want give up le although got sometimes i still will miss u...
cause i will know that u finished primary school already....
and get ready to your new life...college already...
maybe at there will have some more suitable girls for you...
got a boy ask me go heard replay today...
he said that is the meaning and feeling from him to me...
lol.
if that boy was you that too good...
but unluckily that not you...
but even is you i also duwan already...
i felt so tired...
and i cant said anything...
cause i have no energy already...
cant hold da hand...
just put it in your heart...
that is enough...